Sixties Chick

May 5,2016

In case you missed it, APRIL WAS SAFE DIGGING MONTH according to PECO’s four-story illuminated ticker-tape.

Yes, I know it means checking with some city agency before you start excavating out back for that fabulous home theater, patio, pool or what have you.  And, like the sign says, “KNOW WHATS BELOW BEFORE YOU DIG.” Good idea! Thank you PECO.

My fertile little mind, however, goes straight to the digging of a different kind. And, as anyone who has ever confronted his or her shadow knows, there ain’t no such thing as “safe” digging.

If you dare go noodling inside—and I  MEAN DEEP INSIDE—looking to finally face down the stuff that’s got you by the proverbial balls, you never know what you’re going to find.  I do know it won’t be pretty. I do know it won’t do anything for that old ego.

In fact, coming face to face with that slippery, shrouded, not-so-loving part of us is no fun at all.  It is upsetting, demoralizing and at times pretty painful. It is a perilous pursuit. It is why so few of us do it.

Right off the bat it requires sitting still. You know, getting off the treadmill, stopping for a time. With no input, no output. No feedback, no comment, no LOLs, no nothing. That’s a mighty big ask, if you ask me.

Must I extricate the Amazon? De-friend the Facebook?  Trim the tweets? Prune the earbuds? Oh dear!

Must I lose the “likes?”  The pundits?  The polls?   The cute cat videos?   Oh no!

Afraid so.

Because in the quiet of that sitting, I will look those demons right in the eye.

I will feel them, smell them, taste them, caress them, and come to know them.

I will accept them, forgive them and then,  let them go.

Just imagine the unsavory bits and pieces of congealed “stuff” from years of unconscious stuffing?  Why, it’s the mother lode!

I will free you my little wounded ones, and with it Myself.

To dig or not to dig; what a bogus question! Proceed without caution, and full steam ahead!

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